"I'm in a glass case of emotion!"

The first few days of being a mommy have been rough! I thought I knew a lot about babies and kids until Parker came home. Nursing luckily has been easy for us. He eats A LOT and hopefully will get a schedule within the next few months. We've been keeping track of his eating and diapers and they're kind of all over the place. Demand and supply as I've heard it been called.

I'll be honest, I cried a lot the first 3 days. It's such an overwhelming rush of emotions to realize you're in charge of a life. I still cant believe sometimes that this little baby lying next to me is my son. Sometimes it's exhausting being up in the middle if the night as Parker fusses for food and a clean diaper. I want so badly for him to feel loved and safe at all times.It's been nice talking to other people about their experiences beginning motherhood. Reading books and going on baby websites can only prepare you for so much. It feels good to know everything were going through is normal.

I think that having Parker has made me finally understand the love God has for us. Loving your own child feels so different than anything else. No matter how tired or upset I am, I can't help but want to keep going and give him all that I can.